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Monday, June 25, 2007

[[last day of holiday]]

actually i cant say tat its e last day of holiday.. cuz as i blog im onli left with lyk.. 10hrs b4 i nid to get bac to sch.. anyway.. did enjoy myself today.. met a fren to have lunch and chit chat met another bunch of frenz to go party world in e evening.. hee.. i tink i started to lyk him le.. but.. im scare.. scare tat im not able to settle down.. scare to be hurt deeply again.. scare tat it would not last again.. scare of the empty promises.. scare tatwe cant even be frenz if everything reali ends.. if u ask me y would i be afraid of all tis rubbish.. mayb is cuz i've been hurt too deeply in e previous relationship.. tats y of all my doubts.. i've learnt to trust tat time.. slowly bit by bit.. but in e end.. he betrayed my trust.. he himself even doubt me.. if tats how it should b.. den y expect me to trust u in e ferst place.. i reali dun understand.. i can give reali gd advice but it doesnt work on myself.. mayb cuz i've seen tat life is alwaz unpredictable.. mayb cuz everytime once i've been livin great..it doesnt last.. im not hopin for too much am i?? i juz wan some one to let me lean on when im gonna collapse. someone to hold on to when im sinkin.. someone to sit bside me when im down.. someone who understands me well enough.. juz tat special someone.. cuz sometimes.. u would feel tat friends arent enough.. eventhough its ur best friends.. eventhough they understand u more den ur mummy would.. anyway.. lets hope tat everything would be well.. i dun wanna tink so much.. juz wanna be happy.. =D [[NwI'veLearntThat]] [[iLiveForMyself]]

Can't Say I Never Knew You|6/25/2007 01:52:00 AM|

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