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Friday, January 11, 2008

[[back again]]

im here again.. sch started for 2wks alrdy.. stil slackin my way through.. but ytd which is thurs.. i didnt slp throughout the day.. i even make notes on DEC..dun knoe y.. i knoe i gotta start workin hard to prove myself.. is it too late for me? i dun knoe.. anyway.. the attachment thingie out alrdy.. im in M&E..honestly speaking.. i dun knoe wats tat at all.. but does it matters?? it isnt me who choose the company oso.. tis few days..dun knoe startin frm wed or thurs.. been feelin down..dun knoe y.. feelin lost..as if im drowning.. being pulled down by so many things.. i cant breath.. i cant find my way out.. its pitch dark..so dark that i cant even see anything..nothing.. so quiet that i can even hear a needle drop.. no one to guide..no one to listen.. i dun knoe who to turn to.. family problems..friends..school... r there anymore problems to come?? im sick n tired of everything.. i feel lyk a balloon.. u keep blowing n blowing.. im about to burst.. no one there for me to let out my air.. no one..the one closes to me ask me not to think so much.. i oso dun wanto..but i cant choose.. the thoughts keep coming.. i doesnt wanto make my life so difficult.. i reali wanto live a happi life.. reali.. i tend to blog alot and throw everything into my blog everytime i feel depress.. everytime i feel down.. i wouldnt tel anyone everything.. i would tel one some..the other some..... mayb its lesson learnt? except for him.. i dun knoe who to trust anymore.. n i knoe that he's busy with his army life.. busy with his own problem.. who can i trust? who can i go to with all this problems?? i feel that im alone.. facing all this alone.. theres no one alongside with me.. no one there for me.. i knoe he cares.. but he's not here for 5days a wk.. wat should i do?? i reali dun knoe.. lets hope everything would be fine.. insha allah... P.S. i dun wanto drown..

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Can't Say I Never Knew You|1/11/2008 03:01:00 AM|

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